An emotional night

It seemed like a very emotional night last night. We were picking up a few different scenes, warming up and polishing. Then we did "The Crucifixion"...Caroline and Jeanine were just excellent - so full of grief. There's going to be such a strange feeling after each show - normally people are on a high having done a big finishing number and walk-down, but with our ending, things are going to be a bit quiet.

We were skipping most of the solos as they are pretty much sorted, so I just filled in with "Strange Thing Mystifying" and my bit in "Everything's Alright", which went OK.

We sent on to the second act, starting with a full "Last Supper", but no "Gethsemane". We then played it pretty much all the way through.

One worry is the state of Steve's voice for "Herod's Song". He's had a really bad throat for some weeks now and it doesn't seem to be getting any better. It would be a real shame if he couldn't sing it on the night, as he does it so well. If his voice hasn't returned by opening night, it will have to be a question of someone (probably James) singing it in for him.

Something happened with "Judas' Death" last night...I don't know what, but I kind of lost myself in it (in a good way!). I don't know why, but I seemed to go up another gear, even from my previous performances. By the time I had finished, I had real tears in my eyes and I was shaking...I had to go and sit down for a few minutes, before picking myself back up for "Superstar". This is going to be quite hard for me I think. I'm just going to feel like going and shutting myself away after I have hung myself, but I only have 5 minutes before I have to come "flying" back on again.

Geoff seems really happy with how we are getting on and has said that if things go well on Thursday, then he will cancel Sunday's rehearsal. I think this is the right thing to do now. We are getting to that point where we can start to go over the top and it will do us all good to have a short break from it. The next 2 weeks are going to be so intense, mentally and physically, for us all, I think we will all benefit from recharging our batteries a little before heading into the "final push".